Dear stranger

Who the HELL are you ? (:

To you

If you keep hiding from shit in the world, eventually the world comes into your front door. Yes it does :)

BCB

I want to scream until I have no voice left

Maybe then someone would notice I'm not alright

Ucapkanlah

"Kadangkala aku rasa ingin luahkan segalanya

Rahsia yang tersimpa di dada sekian lama

Namun kelu terus membisu menatap wajahmu

Daku malu tapi tak mahu kehilanganmu

Dan kadangkala kita hanya sedar keindahannya

Apabila ia sudah tiada di depan mata

Tidak rela kulepaskan satu-satunya insan

Yang berikan ku segala makna kehidupan"

Comeback

Rase macam nak delete je blog ni. Err entah lah. Dah rase cam bosan sikit. Tp sebenarnya, assignment yg berlambak ni buat aku rase tension je nak ber-blog. Bukan ape, cam dah takde ape aku nak cite lagi kat sini .Seriously, I've suffred for the past few months. Dengan study lagi, family, relationship, friends. Urghhhhhhhhh!! I had enuff! Huhuhu. Nak jadi hati kering sementara ni. Biarlah orang nak cop aku macam. Cakaplah ape pun.

How can you ?

I can think of younger days

When living for my life

Was everything a man could want to do

I could never see tomorrow

But I was never told about the sorrow

And how can you mend a broken heart?

How can you stop the rain from falling down?

How can you stop the sun from shining?

What makes the world go round?

How can you mend a this broken man?

How can a loser ever win?

Please help me mend my broken heart

And let me live again

I can still feel the breeze

That rustles through the trees

And misty memories of days gone by

We could never see tomorrow

No one said a word about the sorrow

Who Knew

You took my hand, you showed me how

You promised me you'd be around

I took your words and I believed

In everything you said to me

If someone said three years from now

You'd be long gone

I'd stand up and punch them out

Cause they're all wrong

I know better

Cause you said forever

And ever, who knew?

When someone said count your blessings now

For they're long gone

I guess I just didn't know how

I was all wrong

Kebahagiaan dalam Perpisahan

Tak perlu ucapkan sepatah kata

Kerna lantang terbaca dari muka

Kau dan daku sudah tiada

Keserasian di jiwa

Mungkin magisnya sudah hilang

Tak perlulah kita mencuba lagi

Betulkan kesilapan perhubungan ini

Bila setiap perbincangan

Menjadi perbalahan

Manakah agaknya cinta kasih

Embun pun takkan mampu menyubur sekuntum

Bunga yang layu pada musim luruh

Yang dulunya mekar di sinar suria

Bila sudah kering pasti akan gugur

Seperti cinta kita yang jelas ternyata

Semakin lama oh semakin rekah

Menimbulkan tanya apa mungkin kita

Temu kebahagiaan dalam perpisahan

Usah titis air mata kau tangiskan

Ku dah cukup menampung selautan

Begitu lama ku pendam

Tapi hanya berdiam

Kerna cuba menafi realiti

You

Run just as fast as I can

To the middle of nowhere

To the middle of my frustrated fears

And I swear you're just like a pill

Instead of makin' me better

You keep makin' me ill

Keep smiling :)

Fuhh. Lamenye x sentuh blog!! Habuk sudaa ;p Hehehehe. Urm okaayy. Wut shud I tell 1st eh? Let me list some of story in my mind.

a) Semester 3 dah habes!

b)Overnite with him. Miss you Bie :)

c)Kuih raya

Hahahaha!! Sgt indah bile final exam da hbes! Lega gila. Penat betol nak habeskan 7 paper tuh. Nk kiamat rasenye. Semput nafas aku. The paper was great. I love the q's. But the one n only paper I dun even like much is the DPNT. Cuz got fever a day b4 the pper. Ruined the mood a lil' bit. Yaikkss! Ngeeeeee. Got no time to study on the subject better. Yeah with the flu,fever. Sape tahan kot? T____T luckily it was the last paper. Hehe.

Yeahh overnite. Smlam overnite dengan Zul for the 3rd time. Hehehee. Kami jarang overnite cuz yelahh busy kot sgn class. The 3rd time was accidently. Tak rancang pun. Sebab aku da shopping lama sgt kt Times Square so got limit time to spend 4 the movie. Heeeeee. Agak penat dan ngantok overnite kali ni. Masing2 xcukup tido hari sblumnye. Hehehhe. Jd amek keputusan utk tgok midnite muveee di TS saje. Salunye tgok di Pavilion. Ape je kami buat eh? Gi Low Yat and Sungei Wang cari baju. Hoho. Weekend agk rmai yg overnite rupenye. Maklum le cuti. Heeeee. Urmm kami byk cakap mase ni. Those stupid questions n explaination from Zul made me laugh crazily. Hehehehe! Gile punye Orang Tua ;) Lepak depan Amoda n talk, talk, talk ! Lepak till sahur. And yes sangat ngntok sbnrnye. Aku sempat lelap mase midnight muvee n Zul sempaat lelap dpn Amoda. Hehehehe. Sempat laa jugak kacau die tido ;p Yeah i missing him much. Been apart for 42 days. Cuti sem >.<

Err kuih raye? Hahahaha. Da stat tadi dgn mama. Kami stat buat yg senang2 dlu. Yang susah next week baru mule. Hehehe. Tadi buat Choc Chip biscuits. Senang ja. Adam pun bleh buat. Hehehe. Uhh got alotta work to do this weekend. Bilik xhabes renovate lg ni. Sepah jek. Ngeeee.

lovelovelove

Di kala ku kehilangan

Di dalam kegelapan

Kau suluhkan sinar petunjuk

Di kala ku kesedihan

Kau ukirkan senyuman

Dengan penuh sabar memujuk

Engkau menyambut tiap kali aku terjatuh

Andai hari esok langit akan runtuh

Tabahlah menjunjung bersamaku

Andai hari esok dunia gelora

Takkan ku gemuruh selagi ku ada kamu

Di kala aku tak pasti

Kau tampil dengan berani

Membimbing agar lebih yakin

Dan bila hidup penuh soalan

Kau berikan jawapan

Melengkap semua kekurangan

One

Hayyooo. Tak boleh tidur lagi neh. Apa pasaaaai lah =.=" . Eh nak tanye, salah ke kalau fikir masalah? Cuma kite kena pandai ikut or suit with the place and time lah kan? Jadi aku rase tak salah nak fikir. Sbb aku lebih suke fikir semasak,seranum yg mungkin utk buat sesuatu keputusan. Nanti aku menyesal. Sebab da banyak kali aku buat camtuh. Jadi, I need a little change in life ;) Kesimpulannya, bila aku da buat sesuatu,jangan salahkan aku and cakap aku tak fikir or selidik dulu mana betul mana salah. Aku dah puas berfikir maka keluarlah 1 keputusan. Nak taknak terima aja lah. I know what's right what's wrong. Dont see me as a 9 years old kid. Imma 19 okayy. I do think alot when im slowly grown up. Jadi cubalah sekali sekala terima apa keputusan aku. Salah ke kalau aku buat sesuatu utk senangkan hati aku sendiri bila dah keadaan sekeliling tak boleh nak senangkan hati? Korang je nk senang-senang? Aku tak payah? Yelah time senang tak ingat orang, bila dah susah terhegeh sana sini minta nasihat. Memanglah nasihat tu free. Klau setakat ko dengar tp tak praktik buat ape. Pandai lah fikir sendiri. Masing-masing besar dah. Ape lah nasib asyik malang je setahun ni. Apesal korang suke kacau aku hah??

Uhibbu kifillah

*Babe*

*Ainaa*

*Mila*

*Que*

Yeah. Hari 1st day exam. Wahwah. Sangat cepat keluar PKK. Macam betul je ape yg dijawab. Hehehe! Tapi alhamdulillah. Apa yg di spot, sume keluar. Thanks Sir Hairol ! I owe u my life ! :) Hari ni agak happy. Berjumpa kawan-kawan. Rindu nk gelak-gelak dengan dorg. Hehehe. Especially Senah. Hahahahahah! Wut a day today with Senah. We saw something disgusting! Euwww. Cant mention here. Bahaye. Hanya Senah, Que, Mila and Ainaa je tahu td pe belaku ;) Yeah guys. I know Im depend much on all of u. Tapi tu lah. Terlalu bergantung kat orang pun susah. Kalau boleh memang taknak pon orang rase terbeban sebab aku. Kalau boleh memang taknak orang tahu aku punya masalah. Dorang pon banyak lagi masalah nak fikir selain masalah aku. Solution? Stand up and be independent! Farah can do it ;)

Semester 3 Final Exam

*Im not a teacher!*

Ouh my ! Esok exam sudah. Teaching of Writing. Gudluck fer me! Waaaa. Cepat betul Rase macam baru masuk KUIS ni jek =.=" . Tetibe je dah nak masuk sem 4. Tahun depan habes dah belaja. Wahwah~ Sangat bimbang. Future masih samar-samar lagi. Cant see much :( Risau risau. Aku tak minat jadi cikgu laaa. Sangat tak rock ! Nanti aku buat macam cite The School of Rock tu tau lah. Hayyooo. Bila mau tukar personaliti neh? Sume kengkawan da bajet perempuan melayu terakhir.(korang kawan aku ke? Haram tak) Huahuahua~ Ahh parah. Keadaan dah parah ! Makin buta ke apa eh mereka? Tak apa lah. Aku consider jek korang buta hati,telinga,mata. Suka? Aku lagi suka ! Pedehal laa brader. Nak keluar KUIS cepat-cepat ! "Segan" nak hadap muka2 itu lagi. Tukar course terus nanti. Amek diploma lagi sekali. Mesti dah tak jumpa malaun tu lagi. Hahaha!

Farah

*Let's face it Mila :) *

I am strong, because I am weak.

I am beautiful, because I know my flaws.

I am a lover, because I am a fighter.

I am fearless, because I have been afraid.

I am wise, because I have been foolish.

And I can laugh, because I've known sadness

Gifted

* They're my strength *

I've been walked on, used, and forgotten, and I don't regret one moment of it, because in those moments, I've learned a lot. I've learned how to tell when people are lying and when they're sincere. I've learned how to be a teenager, and how to grow up when I need to. I've been to hell and back a few times, and I won't ever take what I have for granted. This is life, live it one day at a time. Because, you never know how many days you've got left.

She Is

Beiber - Overboard

It feels like we’ve been out at sea
So back and forth that’s how its seems
Whoa and when I want to talk
You say to me
That if its meant to be, it will be
So crazy in this thing we call love
The love that we got that we just cant give up
I’m reaching out for you tell me
Out here in the water and I

I’m overboard and I need your love
Pull me up
I cant swim on my own
Its to much
Feels like I’m drowning without your love
So throw yourself out to me
My life saver

Never understand you when you say
Wanting me to met you half way.
Felt like I was doing my part
Get bringing your coming up short
Funny how these thing change
Cause now I see

So crazy in this love we call love
And now that we got it
We just can’t give up
I’m reaching out for ya
Got me out here in the water and I

It’s supposed to be some give and take I know.
Your only taking and not given any more
So what will I do?
Cause I still love you.
You’re the only one who can save me

Beautiful Disaster

He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He’s as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world could cave in
It just ain't right

Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

He's magic and myth
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
And do I try to change him?
So hard not to blame him
Hold on tight

I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm waiting for some kind of miracle
Waited so long
So long

He’s soft to the touch
But frayed at the end he breaks
He’s never enough
And still he's more than I can take

Seperti yang dulu

Heee. Di pagi Sabtu agak membosankan. Lagi2 di bulan puasa ni. Ngeeee. Tak boleh mengunyah2 sambil menaip di blog T___T tapi tak apa, saya tak kisah ;) Ape je aktiviti family masa hari minggu ni eh? Ayah kerja. Mama kemas rumah. Adik2 sebok dengan katun jek. Fariz pun kalau weekend, tidonye sampai ke petang. Haishh. Kuat betol tido. Tp hari ni,dia yg bangun awal lagi dari aku. Muahahahaa!! Erk~ Jerawat ! Getting more and more plak kat dahi ni. Napelah time2 camni ko nak ada. Tapi jangan ada time raya nanti sudahlah. Mau menangis aku nanti. Weeeeeeee.

Tetibe rase best pulak lagu band Dewa ni. Aku manelah layan sangat Indon2 nehh. Ni fariz la ni mendownload. Heee. Dengarkan aje. Boleh masuk laaa jugak. Tp indie? Pegi jahanam. Saya benci ye indie. Nguahahaha!! Tp outrange punye certain band je buleh masok like Hellogoodbye. Haaa final exam is around the corner. 1st subject is Teaching of Writing. Hayoooo. Harap aku dapat jawab laaa. Tak mau frust menonggeng bile dapat pointer nanti. Aku dapat rasekan aku makin terok belajar. Kedatangan kuliah n tutorial makin teruk. Ape nak jadi daaa. Dah laa semester ni 21 credit hour. Nak mati ape? Hayoooo. Sabar je lah. Harap assignments dapat membantu. And also the micro-teaching. Bukannya rajin sangat nak membaca kalau bulan-bulan puasa ni.

Ohh semalam ade benda yg best berlaku. Akhirnya,ada sinar jugak. tu lah. Berkat kesabaran yang tinggi =) Sape cakap tak sakit? Letih, putus asa, semua ada. Tapi still, I want go thru all this. Even its hard. Even there's no one beside to help me, I'll managed to get thru this. Thumbs up to me :) Walaupun belum berakir lagi,tapi its slowly goes to. Enuff bout this.

Lastly, hidup ni memang siak! Hahahahaha!

Reach

Hush, don't speak a word about the dreams that I live for.
It hurts to reach you when I’m down,
Don’t speak again I'm still waiting for my turn
It hurts to reach you when I’m down

My dreams are growing into
Frustrations when I hear your voice
My ears are ringing louder
Repeating words that bring me down

As you are moving forward
I feel as if I can't catch up
I’m stuck here at the bottom
You’re too high up to come back down

So hold your breath and spare me
Don’t blame me for trying to
Silence your harsh words my dear
My ears are ringing of this
I can't stop thinking of it

First Time

We're both looking for something
We've been afraid to find
It's easier to be broken
It's easier to hide

Looking at you,holding my breath,
For once in my life,I'm scared to death,
I'm taking a chance,letting you inside.

Feeling alive all over again,
As deep as the sky, under my skin
Like being in love, she says
For the first time
Maybe I'm wrong,
But I'm feeling right where I belong
With you tonight
Like being in love
To feel for the first time

The world that I see inside you
Waiting to come to life
Waking me up to dreaming
Reality in your eyes

We're crashing
Into the unknown
We're lost in this
But it feels like home

Wish

so you found
a better hiding place than on the ground
inside the image
of who they think you are
I wish the best of everything for you
I hope you know that honestly I do
how long can you run
turn your back on everyone
just let me know
when you're tired of being alone
so you wait
all through the night and day to day
wait for the illusion of the perfect song

My

Can't hold you down
Can I be you
There's nothing I can do
A slave to your hands

Climb up above
Your precious time
Don't worry your time
Don't hurry your mind

Where did you go?
Where did you hide?
All I can do
Is watch you pass by

Every time I try to take it back
I know I don't wanna live like that
I'll wait for tomorrow
Too tired to go the other way
Too late to wait another day
I'm going on

Little Hide

I wish I had a penny for
everytime she gave me those eyes
Those eyes would cry, take me on the floor
I've been with her once of twice
In my dreams it felt so nice
I'd do exactly what tose eyes told me
There's never a smile on your face
Always a gesture of disgrace
Obviously you're unhappy with my stares that I hold far too long
Of course I know that it is wrong
But deep down inside I know you like it
In my little hide
Upon the rack I'm stretched and split
Demeted as I do my bit
Whatever I could do to make you smile
I can't wait to get to bed
Not so I can rest my head
It means I can dream about you more

My World

Please tell me what is takin' place?
'Cos I can't seem to find a trace
Guess it must have got erased somehow
Probably 'cos, I always forget
Every time someone tells me their name
It's always gotta be the same
In my world

You know I always stay up without sleepin'
And think to myself
"Where do I belong forever
In whose arms, the time and place?"

Can't help it if I space in a daze
My eyes tune out the other way
I may switch off and go in a daydream
In this head my thoughts are deep
But sometimes I can't even speak
Will someone be and not pretend, I'm off again in my world?

When you're all alone in the lands of forever
Lay under the Milky Way
On and on it's gettin' too late out
I'm not in love this time, this night

R a n d o m

1. Do you get enough exercise?

In this month? I dun think so. Eheh.

2. What was the last insult you GAVE?

"U're the best BITCH I'd ever had."

3. Mom or Dad?

Dad :)

4. Have you ever missed a meal because you were busy on chatting?

Alwayss. Huahuahua !!

5. Do you pray?

I do.

6. What if you had three wishes - what would you wish for?

i- First, I wanna erase back all the mistakes I've done in my childhood times.

ii- Second, I wanna change the desicion I've made a long time ago.

iii- Third, I wanna go to the college Im dying for.

7. Dogs or cats?

Hamster.

8. Do you drink alcohol?

Mountain dew is pretty cool.

9. Name one person you hate, and why.

Hahaha. I've wrote all this just in my diary.

10. How easily do you trust people? Why?

Mybe Im too "lurus bendul" That's why I divided myself into 2 parts. Which is first,I do easily put my trust on pple then I behave like with a halo at my head. Second,when the person broken the trust I've gave,well I can be look alike the best damn DEVIL u ever known ;)

11. Logic or art?

Art.

12. Have you ever shoplifted?

No.

13. Croutons or bacon bits?

Croutons! Yummy! :D

14. What is the perfect day for you?

Hmm. My perfect day is where there's no one intefere in my personal life,let me do all the things with my ownself,laughing till the heart burst with the babes,everything that I've planned goes smoothly and when alone in the room and listening to the fav song :)

15. Do you like holidays?

Soooooooo muchee mucheee !

16. Favorite country?

Italy

17. If you had to get married now, who would you want to marry?

Marry with my ownself.

18. Explain what you think about dating.

Its unexplainable !

19. Do you have a soul?

Do i ? Hehehhh.

20. Have you ever tackled someone?

When I was Form 3. Hehehe! ;p

So so

Are you aware of what you make me feel?
Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real.
Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you?
Why'd you turn away?
Here's what I have to say.

I was left to cry there, waiting outside there
Grinnin' with a lost stare
That's when I decided.

Why should I care?
'Cause you weren't there when I was scared
I was so alone.
You, you need to listen!
I'm startin' to trip
I'm losin' my grip
And I'm in this thing alone.

Am I just some chick you placed beside you
To take somebody's place?
When you turn around can you recognize my face?
You used to love me, you used to hug me
But that wasn't the case,
Everything wasn't okay

Jolly