Sayang

Tiba-tiba semuanya. What else can go wrong?

Ini semua kerana affection dan sayang. Maaf kerana kasar.

Aku sudah hilang kawalan.

Anything can be as simple as I want to. All I have to do is let go the darkness and be happy as much as I wanted. This fragile eff-ing stubborn heart won't let it happen as a matter of fact, I do and hope everything will be okay and easy.

Am I that unimportant to you?

Am I not that interesting? 

Have I changed? 

Yes. I did notice that somehow I am not me.

Somehow I pretend to be happy while I'm not.

But,

The one and only thing I'm not pretending is my love and care towards this relationship. 

Those feelings are REAL.

Maafkan bila ku tak sempurna.

Bergolak

"Days grew longer and night grew shorter, I can show you I'll be the one."

Can it happen? Can it be understood? 

Can I request for it? Can you make sure that I'll be okay?

Boleh ke aku anggap ini semua mimpi ngeri?

Entahlah. 

Ianya perit.

Semoga hati tenang.  I missed the old me. The happy Farah.

Whatsapp

Tertanya-tanya setiap kali kejadian itu berlaku.

Tapi I've been asked to trust him.

But how accurate the coincidence can be?

And again, I kept it inside my heart.

Sebenarnya terlampau penat untuk bertanya. Pahit rasanya.

Because it's 5.24 AM

It's been a year and a half and the life of mine changed A LOT.

Yes. I mean A LOT.

After the biggest impact occurred last year, I moved to a new life which I found it absolutely CRAZY & WILD and it took my breathe away. I admit, I'm in love with "The Things" I've done and I'm in love with the job and new stunning friends, but hey, I did learned from my mistake. The sweetest mistake I'd ever done and menyesal itu memang ada. But thank you for the experience. Really appreciate it.

Thank you

Kak Eryn

Abang

Kieron

Nizar ( I hate him)

And after that phase, I moved to a new surrounding which is I do enjoy it to the max. Totally. People are nice and they loved me. The one who I thought who can't really understand me turns to be the one who can. Aviation is a new world for me and it is the world that I'd really want to work my ass off hard since I've graduated from my high-school. 

Things turned out to be crazy when someone purposely knocked the heart while I'm enjoying my life and he bring out the best of me. At first I don't believe what had happened because I do think it is impossible for us to work it out. Besides, we're totally "Just Friend". I swear I don't care but I knew, my heart said otherwise. He did played with my heart and let me down so so many times dan peritnya hati hanya aku yang tahu.

Just to be clear, I do believe in myself. If karma wanna punch me on the face, screw you. I do believe this is fate. As much as I want him to be my side, I really do hope he wants the same too. 

30th August 2014 hari bersejarah even lagi sekali disimbah dengan kesakitan 3 days before.  2nd of May 2015 will be the greatest day ever. Walau macam mana pun kau sakitkan hati aku, aku takkan mengalah. Aku bukan perempuan tipikal yang akan bow down begitu mudah. Kita belum kenal sepenuhnya lagi Cik Tunang :)

P/s : Adakalanya kepercayaan itu mengalir, dan adakalanya ia hilang. Tapi aku betul cintakan kau.