The Breath Takers

Sunday, July 18, 2010


I've never gone with the wind
Just let it flow
Let it take me where it wants to go
Till you open the door
There's so much more
I've never seen it before

I was trying to fly
But I couldn't find wings
Then you came along
And you changed everything

You lift my feet off the ground
Spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier

Watched from a distance as you
Made life your own
Every sky was your own kind of blue
And I wanted to know
How that would feel
And you made it so real

You showed me something that I couldn't see
Opened my eyes and you made me believ
Baby, you showed me what living is for
I don't want to hide anymore

Saturday, July 17, 2010


Everytime I say I Love You...

I'm really trying to say so much more than those three little words.
I'm trying to say u mean more to me than anyone else in the world.
I'm trying to let u know that I adore u and that I cherish the time we spend together.
I'm trying to explain that I want u and that I need u and that I get lost in wonderful thoughts
every time I think about u.

And each time I whisper "I Love You", I'm trying to remind u that u're the best thing that has ever happened to me :)

Love is?

Love is when u can't be apart from someone for too long. U're always thinking of them and when u're with them u never want to say goodbye. Love is far from simple. It's quite complex. It's a mix of about everything.

It's sadness,joy,passion,hatred,excitement, it's almost every feeling u can imagine and more. U know love when u find it, it's that person that when they smile it brightens up your day. U can't stop staring at them for fear of losing them, they're always on your mind.U daydream of being with them even if they're less than 20 feet away. And u can't stand it when they're not with u.

The worst feeling u could ever feel is when u know that person u love is not with u. U can't tell when love will happen. U just know when it does. That moment when u first lay eyes on that person, and u never want to look away. That is love. Nothing less :)

Tuesday, July 13, 2010


A crowd of bloodthirsty ants are drawn by rotting flesh
I watch the lonely scenery with an expressionless face
Having lost you, love and hate becomes clear
Having lost you, is there anything left to care about
When the doves no longer represent peace
I've finally been reminded, that those feeding in the plaza are, in fact, vultures,
I use beautiful rhymes to describe a love that has been plundered empty

Black clouds begin to obstruct the sky, the color of the night is unclean
Echoes of that funeral in the park, are flying all through the sky
The white rose that I gave to you has withered in this environment of pure darkness
On branches, the silence of the crows creates a surreal atmosphere
Listening quietly, my black overcoat yearns to provide you warmth
A memory that grows colder with each passing day, a life that's gone,
Fog fills the air all around
I am in an open cemetery
I will still love you after I've aged

For you I play Chopin's Nocturne
To commemorate this deceased love of mine
Just like a wind in the night
So heartbreakingly beautiful
I gently stroke the keys
The longing that I gave was very tentative
You are buried in a place called the afterlife

For you I play Chopin's Nocturne
To commemorate this desceased love of mine
And for you I've become anonymous
Playing the piano under the moonlight
The feeling of your heartbeat
Is still so warm and clear
I remember the scarlet imprint of you lips

Those dragonflies who have lost their wings, are scattered in this forest
And yet my eyes do not show a shred of sympathy
Having lost you, my tears are murky and blurred
Having lost you, even my smile holds shadow
The wind on the moss-covered rooftop
Ridicules my sadness
Like a waterless well
I use an exquisite font-type
To depict that love which not even regret will bring back

Saturday, July 10, 2010

No way

"Everything that I wanted"

Thursday, July 8, 2010


Don't try to explain your mind
I know what's happening here
One minute it's love
And suddenly it's like a battlefield

One word turns into a war
Why is it the smallest things that tear us down?
My world's nothing when you don't
I'm not here without a shield
Can't go back now

Both hands, tied behind my back with nothing
These times when we climb so fast to fall again
Why we gotta fall for it now

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for
Why does love always feel like a battlefield

Can't swallow our pride
Neither of us wanna raise that flag
If we can't surrender then we both gonna lose
What we had

We could pretend that we are friends tonight
And in the morning we'll wake up and we'll be alright
Cause baby, we don't have to fight
And I don't want this love to feel like
A battlefield


We almost shared a dream 
We almost made it as a team 
How nice it would have been.  
We almost touched the stars 
And there stood heaven, almost ours 
We were just outsiders looking in.  
We had the chance to fall 
But fate stepped in to end it all 
Before it could begin.  
And if it's true, you're really going there's nothing but goodbye to say 
The saddest part of all is knowing 
We almost went all the way

Wednesday, July 7, 2010


It is true? Cant sure enuff bout it. Waiting and waiting. My day will come.

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Can't we laugh about it?

I am a poet writing of my pain.
I am a person living a life of shame.
I am your daughter hiding my depression.
I am your sister making a good impression.
I am your friend acting like Im fine.
I am a wisher wishing this life werent mine.
I am a girl who thinks of suicide.
I am a teenager pushing her tears aside.
I am a student who doesnt have a clue.
I am the girl sittin next to you.
I am the one asking you to care.
I am your best friend hoping youll be there.

Monday, July 5, 2010

Better in time

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming
Thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All that I know is I'mma be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I'll believe in
And I know time will heal it


Kenape mesti benda yg sama lagi?!

Take my life

*I'll give it all. I will sacrifie.It's nothing I want more.Nothing*

Sunday, July 4, 2010


*Thanks for the kiss Ayah :)*


Wut shud i type rite now? Kenape masalah dtg bertimpa-timpa? Xlaratnya nk tanggung semua ni. Why? Wut is the mistakes I did? Lepas satu-satu masalah dtg. Kenape ni? Salah ape aku da buat smpai sekarang aku dilayan cara yg same? Akhirnye,berjaya jugak die buat aku nangis. Terima kasih. Rase lega sikit beban wlaupun luka yg die bagi makin lama makin dalam. Aku xmaksodkan pun ape yg aku ckp tuh. Belum habes explain lg,da terjah mcam2. Nmpk sgt benci. Im giving up. U win. Congrats. But please. Please stop all this for awhile. Let me catch my breath. I need air. The fresh air. Byk lg mslah aku nk fikir. Tolong bg aku ruang nk hidup. Jgn tmbah lagi masalah yg sedia ada. To ayah, i love u. I always do. But I cant do this anymore. It is hurt ayah. I know u understand me alot. Tp sekarang rasenye lain dah. Da xlarat nk tanggung smua ni. Tuhan je yg tau. I want to solve all of this. One by one. Step by step. But I cant do it alone. It is better if I get away from everyone? So that everyone can live happily ever after. They dont need me. If Im not here,there's no diff.


Currently mood is empty. Gila kan? Bak kate mila,Welcome to the Club. Gila kau mila? Hahaha. Papepon,mmg sebokk sejak seminggu dua neh. Too much assignment! Ngee. Dgn post-mortem nye lg esok lg. Malasnye nk tido KUIS. Bukan pe. Cant involve myself much with the people in KUIS. Menyesakkan,memusnahkan,menjengkelkan. Sume ade lah. Ngantok gile da sbnarnye neh. Tp tga carik punca kpd ssuatu msalah. Kosong,kosong,kosong. Da xlarat nk rase sedihh mungkin? Too much sblum ni mungkin? Wut shud the right feeling I shud feel right now? Konfius gile. Smpai da xbleh nanges as usual dah. Tade air mata? Aku kan kuat nangis. Pelikk. Ini semua pelik! Adekah semuanye da terlambat? Da terlambat utk sedar semua yg da berlaku? Hati semakin keras? Ego semakin tinggi? Ape semua ni? Xfaham! Makin fikir makin sempit jalan penyelesaiannye. Da xboleh nk percaye? Entahlah. Masih sedih? Yaa mungkin masih. Sebab masih berulang walaupun dah berlaku. Kenape da xboleh nk lembut hati mcm dlu? Takot dipijak lagi? Yup semestinye. Asyk2 the same probs. Penat nk rase dah. Smpai tade rase. Yg terakhirnye,mmbuat aku fikir panjaaaaaaaang gile.

p/s : to be continue..

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Just stand UP

Everything will be alright
This heart is stronger
Than you think
It's like it can go
Through anything
And even when you think
It can't it finds a way
To still push on though.

You want to run away
Ain't got the patience
For the pain
And if you
Don't believe it
Look into
Your heart
The beat goes on

Things get better
Through whatever
If you fall
Dust it off
Don't let up

Don't you know
You can go
Be your own miracle

If the mind
Keeps thinking
You've had enough
But the heart
Keeps telling you
Don't give up
Who are we to be
Wondering what is what
Don't give up
Through it all
Just stand up.

It's like
We all have better days
Problems getting all up
In your face
Just because
You go through it

You ain't gotta find
No hiding place
Because the heart
Can beat the hate

Don't wanna
Let your mind
Keep playin' you
And sayin' you
Can't go on

Let your heart
Be your guide
And you will know
That you're good
If you trust in the good

Will be alright
Light up the dark
If you follow your heart


Again. Not in the mood to post anything. I'll be back if the work is done. Busy.