what the hell ?

You say that I'm messing with your head

All 'cause I was making out with your friend

Love hurts, whether it's right or wrong

I can't stop 'cause I'm having too much fun

You're on your knees,

Beggin' please

'stay with me'

But honestly,

I just need to be a little crazy

All my life I've been good but now,

I'm thinking 'What the hell' ?

All I want is to mess around,

and I don't really care about

If you love me, if you hate me,

you can't save me, baby, baby

Who's that chick ?

She's nobody

She's trying to fit in herself in that crowd

She's hate everything

She's hate disturb others

She's hate liars

She's trying to live in her own way

She's trying her best not to depend on people so much

She loves to be alone

She don't give a dang about those sweet talkers

She's independent

She's sucks

She thinks reversely compare to the others

She's stubborn

She's not a pretender

She's heartless

She's different from other girl

She's hard to understand

She's the victim of those backstabbers

She's out of control

Again .

She says ; Can't handle her ? Put her aside then let her go .

Tak reti-reti

Bile kata malas, cakap aku ego . Cakap kau je betul . Kau je the boss . Konon kau je the leader . Ahh letih aku camni . Penat nak jaga ayat kau . Ayat aku semua salah . Tak penah nak consider. Mungkin pernah, tapi too little . Haha . Bialah . Backstabber is everywhere by the way . Jd stok lepas bosan-bosan mungkin ? Again, words are just words !

p/s ; Tak payah nak fikir sangat . Watak kau takde dalam ni . Anggap je diri kau perfect .

Pengkid ?

Banyak sangat dengar cite pasal pengkid ni lately . Famous betul ! Aihh . Why girls do love a pengkid ? Kenapa bercinta dengan perempuan ? Kenapa bukan lelaki ? Dengar kata, pengkid ni ada sebab 'frust' sangat dengan lelaki. Boleh jadi . Perempuan ni kan makhluk yg sensitif . The most sensitive creation by God . Bak kata lecturer aku . Well, die cakap camtu sebab die pun perempuan. Haha . Girls always know what they want. And by sharing it with another girl, boleh rase macam saling memahami . Ya, perempuan saling memahami perasaan antara satu sama lain . Penah terfikir kenapa perempuan susah nak memahami lelaki dan lelaki pun susah untuk memahami perempuan ? Dan, penah terfikir betapa susahnya untuk forgive and forget ? Mungkin bagi sesetengah org yang nak berlagak tough dan ego tinggi (konon independent), takde masalah dengan semua ni. Tapi bagi yang hatinya sangat rapuh dan fragile itu ?Kenapa nak anggap semua manusia sama macam setabahnya Zulaikha dan Mariam? You are so damn wrong . Kalau semua manusia sama, berperasaan sama,suka pada benda yang sama, orang yang sama dan banyak lagilah yang sama, tak rase susah ke ? Habislah dunia ni nanti . Everything seems go with the flow. Lepas tu apa tujuannya ade Tuhan, syurga dan neraka ? Eh apesal cakap pasal ni. Ok melalut. Hentikan. Hehe.

Penulisan ni sebenarnya bukan nak minta simpati sesiapa mahupun backfire daripada sesiapa . Hanya nak berkongsi dan menyatakan pendapat. Berbalik kepada topik 'Pengkid' , salah mereka kah jadi pengkid ? Bukan nak menyokong , tapi the pain comes from each girls is come from the boy themselves. Kenapa ? Adakah lelaki Melayu ni dah tak cukup bagus ? Salah lelaki ke sebab tak pernah memahami ataupun dengan lebih tepat, buat-buat tak faham . Perlu ke nak teruskan dengan sikap buat-buat tak faham tu ? Apa rasionalnya ? Aku suka tengok perangai lelaki Barat . Mereka sangat pick up ! Tapi tu yang aku dapat rumuskan lah bile dah selalu sangat tengok cite Barat. Hehe. Aku rase lelaki Melayu kene belajar cara jadi lelaki dengan lelaki Barat. Bukan aku tak sokong lelaki Melayu atau Korea atau sebagainya, TAPI entahlah. Takde satu pun yang boleh bagi aku nampak apa kelebihan yang ada pada mereka. Tak semuanya lelaki Melayu macam tu. Aku faham. Tuduhan yg melulu mungkin boleh menyakiti sesetengah pihak. Aku minta maaf . Tapi aku tak faham. Kenapa lelaki mesti ada sikap buat-buat tak faham ? Sedar atau tidak, korang dah buat ramai perempuan jadi lesbian dan lebih tepat, PENGKID !

Haha. Aku tahu aku sangat aimless kali ni . Aku nak jawapan . Kadang2 tengok, pasangan pengkid atau gay lebih bahagia dari pasangan yang normal. Cause they got what it takes. Okay geli . Senang cite , tak boleh ke SEKALI je kaum Adam ni bersifat lebih memahami ? Sekali je. Nak tengok dengan mata kepala sendiri . Dah la , makin panjang cakap makin susah aku nak cari jawapan. Kesimpulan ? Lelaki dan perempuan memang lain . Itu lumrah yang tak boleh diubah. Itu fakta . Itu qada' dan qadar . Sekian .

p/s ; Secret by One Republic sangat mendayu malam ni (:

Busy

Everyday seems to be a busy day (:

I'm glad .

Jangan ada benci

Kesilapan serupa dan seterusnya menodai kepercayaan.

p/s ; Sastera enuff ?

Salam buat kekasih

Di sebalik kalbu

Yang semakin layu

Terbenam rasa rindu

Terkunci suara hati

Tiada siapa tahu

Dimanakah kasih

Tak seperti dulu

Kata kau sayangkan ku

Benarkah itu ?

Walau kehadiranku hanyalah sementara

Bukan salahmu sayang kira kau jatuh cinta

Akan ku pergi jauh takkan kembali

Salam maaf permisi

Ku undur diri

Kini ku bersara

Dengan langkah baru

Menyisi luka ini

Kekasih sekeras aku

Terhiris kerna kamu

Walau kehadiranmu bagaikan menghiasi

Bukan caraku sayang harap engkau mengerti

Pemergianku ini tak ku relai

Salam maaf permisi

Ku undur diri ..

Leaving

Uh , now the closest one have no need me anymore . Everyone exactly the same include YOU who's reading this . Daa . Pura-pura ke ape ? You accused me for being an ego person but do you realise that we are exactly the same ? Banyak lah alasan kau bagi . Consult macam-macam, tapi ? HAHA . Cubalah sekali mengaku yang you're do a mistake. Human do mistake lah ! Now , you have no right to ask anything to me . Nak berahsia . Fine , take it . Everyone knows excluding me . Great . Again , people's right about everything . No one can replace the 1st one . Nothing compare to the 1st one eventho' many bad things happened thru those years . However it is , now your action proved that you still not qualified enuff . Thanks a lot buddy . Till we meet again .

p/s ; The immature me and the matured her . Does it count ?

Bladibu

It is easy to give up . But it never that easy to give in . You never try, then you wouldn't know . Just give a hit about it . Then you'll know . Hmmm .

Bust your window

To hear you stumble when you speak

or see you walk with two left feet

That's when I love you

I love you , endlessly.

Cause here's my promise made tonight

You can count on me for life

Cause that's when I love you

When nothing you do can change my mind

The more I learn the more I love

The more my heart can't get enough

That's when I love you

When I love you no matter what.

p/s ; I'm sorry . I'm scared the way you tell me things .

Putus

Aku duduk sendirian di kamarku,

Menangis kesepian kernamu,

Kau tinggalkan aku,

Kau cari yang lain,

Tergamakmu merobek hatiku.

Tapi setelah kau pergi aku

Mendapat lebih baik darimu,

Dia hargai aku,

Dia sayangi aku

Lebih daripadamu,

Aku ingin kau tahu betapa ku gembira,

Tidak lagi bersamamu,

Sampai masanya nanti kau akan sedari,

Yang kau perlu cintaku.

p/s ; Do have faith in yourself . Don't make me scare .

Yin and Yang

Tenang . Betul lah apa yang aku anggap sebelum ni. Semua anggapan itu benar . Memang dah agak tapi, saje buat-buat tak nampak. Pura-pura endahkan . Dah sampai ke masanya ni ? Thanks a bunch to a friend of mine . Kau memang selalu tolong aku . Dan, memang kau sorang je faham aku . Terima kasih cik Senah ;) So I guess , this road is mine . Got to handle it with my self even I know it would torn me apart . I understand . This is the road I chose and I can't give up . I trust my capability . I do believe in myself . I do (:

p/s ; Selama aku masih bernafas, aku kan selalu memujamu . Sampai mati .

6.20 am

Morning :)

Too early to write a post aite ? Entah . Can't sleep . Everything seems different to me . Tadi , baca balik post lama-lama dulu . Saja mengimbau . Hehehe (: Banyak betol ragam kan ? Banyak betol masalah . Banyak betol suka . Banyak betul duka . Wah . Fius otak burned ni kot . Ayat semacam. HEHE. Takpelah. Bukan ada orang nak bace kan ? Tadi, selak diari . Senyum . Hehe. Gila . Tengok diari pun senyum (: Tiba-tiba , nangis . Yeah . Lama tak nangis . Terlalu banyak yang tak diluahkan pada dunia, dan hanya diluahkan pada yang satu itu. Diari. Ya, diari. Hanya dalam tu menyimpan segala yang tak terluah dan tak mampu diluahkan. Kenapa ? Atas dasar perikemanusiaan. Pelik ? Yup . Hidup aku memang pelik . Memang aku boleh gelak, emo, ego, senyum dan segalanya. Memang aku pernah bercerita pada orang tentang kisah hidup aku . Tapi, tak semua yang mereka tahu. Buat apa perlu aku pamerkan pada mereka kisah sebenar ? Bagi mereka, aku pun tak penting. Inikan lagi terhegeh untuk minta simpati ramai. Hahaa. Dah lah Ain . Berhentilah berharap pada yang tak pernah mengharapkan apa-apa dari kau . Sampai bila ? Sampai bila hendak melihat Ain ? Lihat, dengar, sabar, nangis. Apa teruk sangat ke kau ni sampai nak bagitahu pun susah ? Alah . Penatlah aku . Hasilnya tiada jugak . Ain bodoh. Mampu lihat, tapi tak mampu nak cakap apa-apa.

p/s ; I may not be the coolest, preetiest, hottest women on Earth. But, just remember one thing. We have the same blood color. We're human. Ordinary human. We're all the same .

Listen

What can I do to make you love me ?

What can I do to make you care ?

What can I say to make you feel this ?

What can I do to get you there ?

There's only so much I can take

And I just got to let it go .

And who knows I might feel better

If I don't try and I don't hope .

Maybe there's nothing more to say

And in a funny way I'm calm .

Because the power is not mine

I'm just gonna let it fly .

p/s ; Find my way back to the start .

Him

A million words

Would not bring you back,

I know because I've tried.

Neither would a million tears,

I know because I've cried.

p/s ; May you rest in peace (:

Seduce

Kinda funny when a friend of mine said that he want a girl that already taken by some other guy. Its kinda BERANI MATI punya action . erghh . You make me go wild brotha ! HAHAA . He said , best man win . Yeah , its true . But, ruining people's relationship ? U'uh . Naughty ;) But I do tell him , it's okay if you want to be friend with her . Just FRIEND -.- Not more than that . You know what he said ? "Alahh kau ni . Mula-mula aku kawan . Lepas tu aku tangkap lah hati dia . Macho lagi aku dari boyfriend dia " .

Eh kepala hotak kau laa kan =.=

When it comes to this , I swear Im gonna tear your flesh into pieces dude . Tak baik camtu doe . Let them happy. Let people happy with their own life . Why can't anyone do the same ? It is only me who think this way ? Is it I'm too 'kuno' ? Why must the third person exist in a relationship ? Why ? What exactly do you want from them ? You want them to be apart ? You take for granted for their kindness towards you ? What it is exactly do you have in your dirty mind ? Uh. People becoming more and more desprate and pathetic . What happen to you guys ? Is it hard to find a girl / a guy that you really want ? Or , you're too picky . Come on lah . WE'RE HUMAN . Not an angel . Human being are lack of everything . Sometimes, there is goodness inside of a guy or a girl you don't like . Don't just because you hate the way they talk, they way he/she dressing up, the way he/she eat, doesn't mean they are a DEVIL ! Open up your eyes widely . Look with your heart . Don't judge them as you wish . They are just like you . Human . Or , you think you're an alien ? yelah , cuz you think you're super different from them . Then you can easily fall in love with someone who's taken or in a relationship .

Adoyy .

Ambil jalan mudah nampak ? Bila semua orang dah buruk depan mata kau , then nampak lovey dovey couple , kau pun masuk jarum . Ewahhwahhhh . "Senang" betul perangai kau kan ? Berubahlah. Find your own happiness in life . Don't disturb others . Sekali jatuh dan dikecewakan , tak bermakna selamanya nasib kau akan macam itu . Kalau kau sendiri duduk terpuruk di tempat yang sama , bila masa kau nak berubah dan tengok dunia ni ?

p/s ; Best woman win . Boleh pakai tak ? ;)

Damn you !

Huuuu . Sampai hati kau amek henfon aku kaaaaaan =( HUHU . Dahla seekarang tengah nak pakai banyak duit. Dengan saman aku lagi -.- Hampeh betul kau ni kaaaaan. Sesuke hati jek . Lembu ! Ayam ! Kambing ! Gajah cacat ! Badak cirit ! Ulat bulu penyek ! Erghhh. Siak . Semuanya siak -.-