Just give me a reason

"Bad attitude is like a flat tire. You can't go anywhere till you change it." 

You told me. You asked me. You pleaded me. I listen to you. Truly I do. But why this you gave me? Am I still at fault since you met the real me? Don't you know how unfair it is when this is happened? You asked me to be ready since very  LONG TIME AGO, but still you're the one who is not ready. I can do anything you want to do,want me to be. Only IF you me prove that you got what it takes to me and my old folks. Love can't really work on this matter babe. It's just can't. Someday, it will lead us to one decision only. 

We are pathetic. We tried so hard without find the major problem. When I saw the causes, still you denied it. You convinced me that everything just a piece of cake. It is eh? Stop pretending that everything doesn't matter to your life. Everything's are important or should I say NECESSARY. Please don't scares me with your act like this. This is not what I'm hoping for all this while when I'm with you. Is it my fault when I want the best for me and you? Tolong awak. Tolong serius. Matang. See things in different perspectives.

Your attitude/ response towards everything around you really scare me to death. You just don't realize what are your problems right? You think that is OK with you but eff-ing shit, IT'S NOT. You should listen carefully when people tell you what's wrong with you. Words you told me, vows you pledged, it doesn't works anymore. You only want 1 thing from me. It takes me a second to do that. But what will happen if I do what asked for and still, you still the same? Hanya serius pada ayat, pengakuan tapi tidak pada tingkah laku? Ini yang awak nak?

I see my future with you as not bright as I want to. When I mentioned this matter, you will always and always said I'm asked too much from you and you are not as rich as the previous guy I used to be with. Saya tahu siapa awak dan tolong cabar diri sendiri! Saya tak larat nak ulang benda yang sama! You're the one who gonna propose me one day and not me to do so to you. You know what, mum said you are not serious and take things for granted. Tak bersungguh dalam nak menjaga saya. 

She can't see what you can do and guess what? She will never let me go from her side until she can find a guy who really take a good care of me. She knows how aggressive I can be and how stern I am when I'm dealing with my life. And she's waiting for a guy who can beat that out of me. This is 100% true from herself and Aiesha just told me that. Again, another one of her relatives asking hand in marriage. This time, she asked that woman in front of me. How serious my mum can be about me and I don't think the plan that you plan will success. Our engagement day on September will disappear on the calendar.

P/s ; To make over myself is not that hard. It's just physically change. But how about you? How to change your life? Tell me when you're ready even though we are not same as we were before.